I feel it’s time for me to move on.
On Christmas 2020, a suicide bomber detonated an RV bomb in downtown Nashville, Tennessee injuring few people and damaging dozens of buildings.

The fact that you can’t comment under Bart’s posts is enough to measure the desolation of this place. My last impression is that it was a book full of answers, looking for the right questions.
A positive aspect of hope is that everything has to change in order to remain unchanged. In some sense, you don’t need to demonstrate that your thoughts are somehow plastic and push forward until the next mystification.

I could convince you not to waste a lot of time and energy looking for a state which does not exist except that in your imagination.
But even a web forum on a phone can bring light in a dark room.