I was 48 years old and lived in Sweden and my life was a hell. Not knowing God or the Bible, not active in a church was the only choice for me to take my life. It was in August 200.

But just before I left my home to go down in the water and kill myself did I felt like aa wind touching me on my cheek and my daughter who was 15 years old also felt the presence of visitors in our home.

My daughter said we should try to talk to those “ghost” in our home. We were alone my daaughter and I and my daughter said we should light up candles and burn herbs so we did as we didn’t knew what it was.

We sat down and waited after spread smoke of burning herbs and the 5 candles burning.

It took long to wait and I were on my way to give up when I saw a red india girl in the air and I told my daughter what I saw. Then I realized it was me as a child as I had braid hair and had almost black hair as a child and said to my daughter that my father used to sing a song about braid hair and I sang it.

My father came forward and we talked and he asked me for forgiveness. Then came 3 other asking me forgiveness and as I felt total LOVE in the air could I only tell them I forgave them.

After the spirits was gone ( I never saw them but I knew it was this people by heart )

Then I saw a man standing in one corner of the room and he had white hair and beard and clothes like a monk.

This man in monk-clothes told me about my childhood tht was very abusive so I had forgotten my childhood but he talked about the abuse and I understood and become healed.

After the man in monk-clothes had stop talking did I heard a strong voice like a military in the air but I didn’t saw any person, it was only a voice.

The voice was only here and now ( I AM ) I could not tell what direction the voice came from only that it was there in the air.

The voice told me about my future and everything He said have coming true.

The voice present himself who He was.

My daughter is born without ovary but the voice said that my daughter should be ALLOWED to carry a baby in her vomb.

I laugh inside me and was thinking it could not be God who was talking to me because He should know my daughter couldn’t get kids.

The voice said I laugh like Sarah did ….he knew I didn’t knew the Bible so He said after a short break….and Abraham.

I did happen only some weeks later that my daughter and I met a Professor that told us my daughter could get babies if she took out egg from my daughter and then could she have a baby in her womb.

When I sign under that they were allowed to take egg from my daughter did I understand it had been God talking to me and I understood there is a God.

It was God who was talking to Abraham and Sarah.

In December 18 did I left Sweden and took a flight to USA without have any work-permitor a place to live or any money. I only knew I had that choice to leave everything in Sweden and be alone and homeless in USA.

I was homeless in USA for 3 and half years before I was allowed to return to Sweden.

But in those 3 and half years did I learn about God and his Kingdom how they helped me to survive in USA alone. 

As I was close to the street and lived in shelter was it many situations where crazy people wanted to kill me but God always made a way for me to escape.

I came back to Sweden in year 2004 and I was very sick of short of blood and had to lay in the hospital to get blood.

I have tried to tell church-leaders about my meeting with God and his hosts in heaven but no one believe me or don’t want to believe me because they are scared or frighten to loose members in the church so they don’t get any money from them.

I have tried in many way to tell my story and I have talked to God more than once.

God have told me to travel to Israel 3 times and I have done it alone and met some leaders in Israel.

I have been to Africa and Portugal because God have told me to do so and for 2 years ago was I to Utah and come in to the church office in Salt Lake city and talked to those men in the top of the Priesthood.

I have done so many things as a servant under God who was talking to Abraham.

My question is …..

What can I do to could talk to someone with a right authority and make this person believe in me and what I have experience  ?

I know after 20 years that I as a woman can’t be listen at as I have no man by my side and I am not married to a Priest who can allowed me to preach.

I am ordained Pastor in USA and it have not helped me at all as I am a woman and it is men who am the closed door for me.

Men do not believe that God can talk to a woman even if the Bible tell us that God can use any person in this last days.

God have given me a name of His church and I have registrated it in Virginia in Portsmouth but as homeless I could never rent a place to open my church in USA.

I have tried to open a church in Sweden but the other churches have worked against me and I have never been allowed to preach in any church in Sweden.

Once again …. how can I move on to make the world to know my story ?

I have asked many authors to help me write a book but no one have wanted even if I tell them they can keep the money from the book.